- the truths about being overwhelmed by stress
- the illnesses that can manifest from stress
- the stigma attached to suffering from stress
- how my employer and insurer both failed miserably in helping me despite the fact I found the strength to stand up and say "I need help"
I did, as advertised deliver the "After the sirens" presentation on May 10th in my current hometown of Cole Hbr, and again on the 11th in Fredericton, NB., and it was after the Fredericton presentation I realized that interest in hearing about my experiences with stress related illness within the uniformed responder community was virtually non existent.
At
the Cole Harbour presentation, in attendance were; my girlfriend, my mother,
my two closest aunts, and one EMS colleague. So the score was Family 4, Responders 1. (There was also one young woman in an EMS cap who was utilizing the library, but she chose not to make her way into the room).
The
Fredericton turnout was 2 paramedics and 1 no show who apologized by email for forgetting about the presentation.
Until
Fredericton I had been cautiously optimistic that despite the fact very few email confirmations
had been received, there would be many who would just show up. Turns out that was not the case at all, so with costs
mounting and interest dwindling I cancelled the remaining presentations
that had been tentatively scheduled for the month of May and put my focus towards the June presentation at the Arizona EMS conference.
I did not however cancel the rest of my trip South because the primary goals of the trip in addition to delivering the presentation were for me to actively manage my stress by doing the two things that safely bring me back to the baseline, those being spending time on my Harley, and being behind the viewfinder of my camera gear. I will continue sharing my experiences and my images on www.riverpiratephotography.blogspot.com once I get back and settled and rehydrated from my days in the desert.
Tomorrow I head for Phoenix and the Arizona EMS Odyssey conference where I'll deliver what might very well be the last of the "After the sirens" presentations, and I'm very much OK with that.
Maybe hearing my story and receiving my message has made / will make a difference in the lives of just one of those in attendance.
Perhaps someday down the road someone in uniform will hear third or fourth hand of my journey to the brink and back and will wisely recognize it's a route best avoided and has the strength to ask for assistance.
If this indeed happens, I have succeeded.
It took me several years to build the strength to stand up and tell my story, and regardless of how many agencies didn't share the opportunity with their uniformed responders, and no matter how many didn't take the opportunity to show up, at the end of the day, I can proudly and humbly say I tried.
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